A New Begin starts with what YOU want……

Lots of people have celebrated the end of 2011 and the start of a brand New Year….173 million euro was spent in this small country for fireworks! The incredible noise made the earth shake here, grownup men went totally banana’s with ‘their’ stuff, children are told it’s too dangerous and only dad can light the 1000- clapper like they call it here; a sort of explosion you would expect at war not in a civilized street somewhere in Sassenheim (Holland). With the understanding that his son was 26….hahahahahahahaha! Dad wanted to light HIS firework by himself. Proudly watching because HIS firework was the biggest and the loudest of the entire street. 173 million into the air….can you imagine? Specially because you and I know people do not fire fireworks to scare off ghosts anymore…
All that money…wow… the economy is bad (they say) and the euro is unstable. When I look at the overloaded carts in the supermarket I don’t see that. The News brings us only worrying subjects instead of Good News. Bad News travels fast, even more than Good News….Why? Are they used to Live based on Fear? What is it that makes people seem to Want to hear the Bad News more than the Good News. Why not make a News channel where the focus is way more on the Good things that happen instead of the other way around? No wonder people get depressed by looking at all the misery that is pored out on us each day! What is it that makes people look at the Dark side of things when there are ALWAYS two sides to look at! Why not focus on the Light side instead?

Many people I know always tell me they believe I am such a Positive woman, very strong, creative and persistent in what I want to achieve. And I always wonder why they say it, not that it isn’t true, I know who I am. No, I mean I don’t understand why they say it with an undertone of: Wow! She can do that, why can’t I?

I wonder if that is true, don’t think so.  Do I have extra genes that make it possible to think and live positively? No. I do have a Choice. And I feel the Want to Choose each day, each moment for what feels good for Me to do. Connected to The Light. Walking my own path. Overcoming the hard things, transforming them into positive empowered structures. Yes, I can do that, but so can you!

Still remains the question: what is it that makes such a difference? Why can I stay Positive and why do you have the feeling that you can’t? Thinking this over I concluded that it all has to do with a lack of Trust and the choice to walk with Fear. But Fear is fried air, it is not real, it is not there, it is just an assumed projection of something that has not happened. So why would you feed Fear by thinking about the projection and let it terrify you?
Let me put down some phrases here I heard:

‘You never know what this year will bring us, we do hope it will be good, but looking at the economy things can only become harder’….

‘We Hope this year will be better than last year, but it IS 2012 you know….what if the Maya’s were right?’

‘Nostradamus already said it; 2012 will be disastrous, we can only hope he is wrong, but he was right about a lot of things. OMG, I even don’t wanna go there…’ etc. etc. etc.

What I sense here is that people will rather decide to walk with Fear than with Trust. It seems to be a sort of self protective mechanism. Really??? Better prepare yourself for the worst, so things don’t come unexpected. True? This would mean people THINK and EXPECT things to be bad….And what you Expect is what you Create…

So why not create Opportunities?

Every single person wants to have a Fantastic 2012, so why not start with Trust instead of Fear? So we can feel and Stay Positive? Choosing for Trust means we will be creative in finding solutions. That we don’t give up. That we will feel prepared of no matter what will happen because we know we are guided and taken care for.
Sure, there will be people who think and do not choose to Sense. They will be rational only and only Believe what they See, not what they don’t see. Even more, they conclude that anyone who believes there is a Universe that will take care of them is totally insane. They are the Only Ones to take care of themselves, there is no Universe in a Spiritual way. Okay, they are totally entitled to walk their own path and have their own way of thinking. So be it. Still, I have seen many rational people start believing all that ‘shit’ they first detested. Moments like the passing away of a Loved One for instance can change their view on life. My own father who always said ‘ dead is dead and that’s it!’ changed his mind because he Experienced something he could not explain but Felt this was True. He experienced the Field of Love and Togetherness in it’s purest form. So never say never.

Control belongs to rational people, they feel the strong desire to oversee everything in life. When they can’t oversee things ahead and be in control of their life, they feel amputated and can even feel disorientated or lost. Pointing to The Others who caused it or helped it to be that way. People who did not act like they expected. But the scenario of Life is guided by the Universe, creating many opportunities to grow. Growth on personal behavior, reaching out for your destination, chosen before you entered this world again. For people who believe this is BullShit, keep on reading. It’s getting more and more interesting from here on!

We can divide people in two groups: Believers and Disbelievers. No judgment involved here by the way!

Believers are those people who believe there is More between earth and Heaven…People who call themselves Spiritual. Who want to walk the path which gives then ultimate Happiness, the path of their self chosen destination. Connected to the Universe/ the Light.

Disbelievers are the people who laugh about that and tell the Believers they are insane. (Just an opinion or a Judgment?) They often go for things that give them satisfaction in a material way. Ego is important, confirmation of who they are too. A director wants to get all of the credits and has the want to be complimented for that as well. Even though many employees did the work. I do realize I put down two groups here in a black and white way. There are people who Believe a little bit but Trust more on the material, realistic and rational or even material things in their Life. Because that is Real….and Belief is not.

I Believe in the endless Force and Empowerment of the Universe/ the Light. What does this mean? Do I bow my head to feel the ‘hand of the Universe’ that beats me down when things don’t go the way I wanted? Do I swallow everything without any objection because I am Spiritual and believe there is a reason for why this all happens? No. I can feel hurt or struck down by things that I do not control, like hearing the entire green card procedure had to be done all over again and I was not able to fly back to my man Brian. I felt beaten for three days. Believers DO have Emotions you know…After these three days I started to Connect myself to the Universe again. More strongly. And I asked for Insights why this all happened. I did not know I was not allowed to travel out of the USA after Brian and I got married. I did know I was not supposed to travel out without permission before our marriage. Anyway, the fact remained the same, the procedure had to be done all over again. After the fiancee visa, now we go for the immigrant visa. The time Brian and I are not Together is very hard but it does not only Take Away, it also Brings us something. And here the Insight kicks in…I was not in the working mode and started to Feel Myself….how incredibly Tired I was. I started to think about my Life till now and finally started to feel the pain I carried with me for years and years. Pain from the Past, sadness I never coped with and though I do not Like to feel all of these things, I was Given the Opportunity to deal with them. Back pain, a pinched nerve, a fall, my body started to protest and asked for attention. I realized I had been working my ass off the last ten years and never took the time to relax and sit down.
The only person who taught me to take good care of Me was Brian by taking me by the hand, sit down, lay down on the couch and snuggle while watching a movie. Isn’t it amazing that I forgot how much fun it is to have Brian reading next to me, while I was reading too? Or walk together hand in hand? Simple things like driving in the car while watching the most beautiful skies ever in Kalispell? Brian standing in the Rain in Holland, arms opened wide, his face headed up towards the gray clouded sky in supreme delight? (In San Diego it hardly ever rains)
There is so much more to Enjoy when we start to allow ourselves to See…

Insight comes to us when we Open ourselves up to that. When we Connect to the Universe and simply ASK for the answers instead of trying all kind of solutions that only bring us further down from our path in Life. Disbelievers who ‘try’ this will get Insights they never dreamed of. You can get any Insight, including the ones you were NOT looking for. You can get Insights you never expected. Waking up at night or in the early morning, the state between being totally awake and still ‘sleeping’ can be such a moment. All of a sudden you ‘know’ the Answer. Or you will be able to suddenly ‘See’ what the solution is. Get the Insight that can change your world. Everything is possible once you start Asking and Connect yourself to the Universe/ the Light.

So, in this Light, I even do not want to speak of Believers and Disbelievers. I am not the person to divide groups in two opposite parties. Why would I? What right do I have to judge a person and to believe I know I can ‘place’ him/her in a certain group?
People do that themselves.
Proud to be a Disbeliever, Happy to be a Believer, it’s all good to me. One of the Insights I received is that I am able to accept people the way they choose to be. Do not Judge persons when they think differently but accept and respect them just the way they are. Give them space, the space they need in order to ‘grow’. Do not give your opinion unless people Ask for it. Only when they open themselves up and want to know more, there will be a opportunity to have a conversation. To reach out for each other and to establish Inner growth.

This is what I will choose and decide to do this year:

I will walk my path of Life with Trust, not Fear.

I will not judge The Others.

I will be positive.

I will Accept, Respect and Love myself and The Others.

I will be open and willing to Help, unless it will cost me too much Energy. .

I will stand up for myself.

I will be totally Me.

I will work for where I Believe in.

I will feel Trust and Faith.

Even when The Others tell me I will never achieve what I want, I will listen to My Inner Voice and follow my path with Trust instead of  Fear. By Listening to what I Feel is good to do, I Will achieve Everything I Choose.

Looking back, Trust and Faith have given both Brian and I many things. Our bond is stronger than ever, Brian is working hard to accomplish what he wants for himself and for us, I have been able to rest and to recover, I was Given Time to leave my Past behind me. To heal myself. Not what I expected as I left San Diego and ‘knew’ I would fly back on the 19^th of November….Life took me up and put me down where I was supposed to be, the Right spot at the Right Time, just go with the Flow the Universe presents us. Life takes me with her, will show me paths and hidden roads I never knew of they even existed. But as long as I Believe and Trust it will Give me way more than I could ever imagine or Long for…like the Perfect scenario I could not have been able to think about, the Universe does that for me…In the End Everything is Profit….

Looking at pictures for this blog I felt a very strong urge to look up Will Smith and Spirituality. No idea Why…Only as I looked at what it was I understood.This is how it works, I sense it, I listen to it and I find something, there to share with you. Another Light worker, Will Smith….

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