When I was 9 years old, I woke up in bed and knew exactly what I dreamed, it was one of these dreams you always remember. It is something you simply know; this dream is more than just a dream. So clear, so different… I saw a glimpse of the future; I saw a face I would always remember. Though I did not know who this person was, I remember I was fascinated by the look on his face. I saw a man standing in front of a little rolling, green hill. He was gazing, I saw a little pond and trees. But most impressive was this look on his face, so peaceful, so calm, so serene, so wise… I wondered why I saw him, opened my curtains and sat on my knees in my bed, looking up at the sky with all the stars. And thought: Where are you? Somewhere on this planet is a person that feels connected to me, who are you and why do you show yourself to me? I sat there for several minutes before I went to sleep again. I lived my life, but never forgot the man I saw. I kept him in a little spot of my soul, cherished him. Somehow it comforted me, knowing there was someone who loved me in a real connected way. Someone who truly belonged to me…
Time went by; I lived my life, got married, “received” three beautiful children, got divorced, and married again, all learning relationships… I know no regrets, though I felt severe emotional pain, the most positive of it all was that I was given insights. In the end of that all, I can say that it has served me and brought me to the right place and the right moment. And what’s even more important, it brought me totally in the NOW. My past is not active anymore, because it was there to teach me certain skills, tools and new insights. Because of that I was able to grow more and more, on different levels. Today I feel blessed, grateful and lovingly ME! Oh, I have had a rough life, have been through a lot, but I can look at it with a smile now, without my learning I would not be the person I am today and today I simply love myself and my life!
About 5 years ago, I dreamed my second dream, the same man appeared. I saw him, sitting at a light wooden, long table, chairs from the same color wood and huge glass windows behind him. He was leaning on this table with his left elbow, while he was pointing upwards with his right hand in an asking gesture.
‘Where are you?’ he asked me. On that moment I simply knew that this was the man who was looking for me. I felt a deep, warm, tingly, very loving sense that grew stronger till I started to cry. I felt so extremely happy! I expected him to meet me in a short time and was very anxious to finally meet him, this stranger who felt as if I had known him all of my life….