What is the power of a word, when the belief behind that word doesn’t match to it?
How many times do we BELIEVE we mean something, even believe that we are convinced of our truth on that moment, while we still hear that tiny, little voice within us that seems to disagree? We can choose to THINK it away. Making up all kind of other believes to prove we are doing the right thing. But still, this little voice can be very persistent…
I was thinking this over last night, I love to be silent for a while and let all thoughts come to me and choose to connect to them or let them pass.
This one thought stayed with me and I wondered why. It led me to a conversation I had with Brian, my love. He had been drinking for a few days and as the week went on and the drinking did too, I asked him questions. I already have been writing about that in my comment on his drinking.
Brian was THINKING he KNEW that he started to drink because he could not sleep. He KNEW that a drink could fix that. He CHOOSED to ignore the follow up of these two drinks (he knew he would be drinking more and more and would have problems to stop the drinking, as before). His little inner voice told him NOT to drink. Still he decided to do it. Why did Brian IGNORE the voice within?
Now this is something only Brian can answer. He told me that he was not doing it for the reason of creating a way to be able to sleep. That was only a made up belief, it served him well to justify his WANT to drink. So, in fact, when we LISTEN to our inner voice, we will be protected and act much more in a way that serves us than as we decide to deny it.
How many times do we know after a certain event took place: SHIT! Actually I already KNEW this. But I decided not to listen to it.
I will give you an example. One time, I was ready for a good relationship and I really wanted that. So I went on the internet and got to know this guy. He seemed to be a real nice guy and we talked on the phone for hours. The next step was to see him. We agreed to meet somewhere and I had made up this beautiful picture in my head of him. He would be tall, blue eyes (as shown on the photo on the internet) and I would know it at the moment I saw him, this is a real great guy for me.
He got out of his car, I was standing there and the first thought I had was: ”OH hell NO!!!
The man was less tall than I was, he looked like a kind of gangster and I did not trust him. Immediately after that I started to judge myself for thinking so bad. How could I judge the man because of his looks? The guy stepped towards me and was clapping his hands saying: “Oh my God! You are fantastic!”, embraced me firmly and then tried to kiss me. And me? I did not feel a thing! I thought…..and ignored my inner voice that told me to back off!
I had been seeing him for over a year; I did not listen to my inner voice and thought I would harm him by telling him I did not feel comfortable with him. I learned very much out of this experience.
1) To hear and listen to my inner voice, that was right, as always…..
2) I decided that I wanted to be a receiver, not only a giver…
3) That I wanted a MUCH better relationship
And last: that I was WORTH it!!!!
I started to think further, I always had an attitude of “Who wants to have ME?”
Then CHANGED that into:
Who do I want?
That brought an entire new view on men!!!
I connected myself to the universe and asked (without imagining anything to go with that) for my partner who truly belonged to me. Then I was given Brian…. The former fairy tale which was more a horror in which they lived unhappily ever after, changed in:
They created their life in a spectacular, amazing and very authentic way and lived happily from moment to moment, totally being in the NOW…..
Brian already wrote about this, I am telling you in my words:
Why get the crumbs when you can have the whole bread???
I want to leave this question with you, just think about it and let us know how you feel or think about this… looking forward to that!