My sweet and most beloved Brian!
I kept on looking at Skype and waited for a sign of you. Not in a troubled way, no way! More in a very much loving way and very curious how you are doing there! You LUCKY BASTARD!!!! Going on a cruise….. So, as I was looking for a way to post a new blog, I looked at our blog page and what a SURPRISE!!!! I saw your beautiful love letter! It made me cry in a sensitive and moved way.
First because I did not expected it to be there…YAY!!!!!
Second because I could FEEL you so close to me that I even closed my eyes for a little while and felt SO CONNECTED… Our Love is a Love with a L…
I was thinking things over today, as I was driving to the hospital. Time does not exist at all; just as distance is something we create ourselves. Of course I realize that you are miles and miles away from me, but there is no distance between you and me. I travel with you, as you travel with me. Our connection is soul related, it has been like that for ages and it will stay that way for as long as we want it. Reading your sweet and deep loving words, tears dropped down and I felt so wonderfully blessed by the miracle of you in my life. And I believe you are right about me and feeling see sick, it will not happen there. I got see sick and YES!!! I KNOW I am writing it as see instead of sea sick, so let there be no misunderstanding for what’s about this….I believe I got sea sick because I was see sick… I looked up at a guy that really became sea sick and was throwing up. I saw his whole breakfast coming by and that made me feel….SEE SICK! RIGHT! So I did not become wizzle dizzle in my stummy because of the ship, I felt sick because of this guy!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!
So, I will most certainly join you on the next cruise! Ahhhh….how nice and most wonderful that will be…the sound of the engines as a gentle beat of music, the wind through our hair (why fix it, just let’s enjoy…) and the sound of the splashing waves, the birds and even when we are lucky, the full sight of some happy dolphins! I write children books about dolphins and I would REALLY want to see them!
Walking on the deck, enjoying to be together, writing and creating more ideas for books and how to fill in the rest of our life! Making plans, even when The Others tell us we are crazy. Honey, we will ROCK!!!! We will CREATE OUR LIFE TOGETHER in the way WE WANT it. We will start with nothing, no house, no money, no furniture, no material providing. We will start with YOU and I and that is exactly what we want. There is a complete universe, we will create our way to find a house, furniture and live our life in our way. And it will be a real home. Because you and I are a real home to each other, because our home WILL be a cozy and very warm home, a real good place to come home to. EVERYTHING will be EXACTLY the way we want it because we CREATE that! A job, a green card etc. It will happen. Because we BELIEVE in that. Our beliefs are optimistic, persistent and most of all loving. We are able to SHARE what we have, even when it is very little. Therefore we can decide to feel blessed, no matter what will happen or where we will stay. We will always have US….and I do not mean the United States with that….hahahahaha!
Now listen my gorgeous, I want you to enjoy this cruise VERY MUCH, rest, laugh, karaoke and have a SPECTACULAR time! I can feel your energy here. I enjoy everything with you, each minute, each second….I am WITH you all the time…
I sent you an e-card, mails etc. But you will get that when you are able to be on the internet and open your mail.
I LOVE YOU!
You are the gift of my life and I will be SO HAPPY to hold you in my arms again….
And now I will be doing EVERYTHING I can to post this on our blog! FIRST TIME for me! YOOOHOOO!
Till tomorrow my loverthelovest! XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Your Mary