This question is one of the most asked questions…Why am I here?
Followed by the next ones:
What is my destination? Why do I live? What is the meaning of it? What use does it have I am here?
Since every person is different, these questions cannot be answered in one. But it can be very useful to take a deeper look at them.
To me, life is clearly meant to get more insights, to develop myself into an even better person, to listen to my inner voice which is directly connected to The Light / God. To lift up my soul; to bring it to a higher level and to get to what I believe is my destination here. In my belief, life is the path that takes me there. I sincerely believe we are all here for a reason. A lot of people do know the answer to the “Why am I here” question, a lot of people don’t. There are people who believe we are here to create a worldpeace in the end and there are people who only believe in the status, wealth and material richness. There is no judgment in this, it is a fact that there will always be people who think and live differently than you. Still we are all connected to our source in The Light.
A belief in a religious way is a deeper feeling or knowing there is more than only this life. Sometimes people say they do believe in The Light, but not in religion. People create their own safety zones in this and feel good or do not feel good to belong to a religion. Which is great, we are all in our own search for what is good for us.
I want to live a life without judging, I choose to live a life in which I am not bound to any religion. Still I am a huge believer. I feel myself strongly connected to The Light; to God. I consider myself to be a good person, always there for people to help. And I am convinced I am here with a reason. In my youth people did not know very much about high sensitive persons. People laughed about it, or were afraid of it and laughed about it because of that, or they did not want to hear about it because it was way beyond their imagination. The world we live in now is totally different. Elaine Aron wrote about High Sensitive Persons, there are people like Eckhart Tolle, “Bears” and his teachers from The Option Institute (http://www.option.org ), people who tell us we have a choice and who make us more conscious and who are able to let us discover what is happening within us. I call them Light workers. People who are here with a reason; so we can find the Light in our self created darkness. People who are connected to their inner voice; their inner strength and who know why they are here. In this regard I think about Oprah Winfrey, Richard Gere, Gandhi and many others. In this time we live in, we are reached out for… Our ways have expanded themselves through the internet. We are more than ever able to find ways to answer THE question: Why am I here?
I want to adjust something to the word destination, it is a word that can be translated into several meanings. The way I translate it is:
I believe I have set certain aims to achieve here. One of these aims is helping other people, the other part of my goal is personal growth. I have learned to Love myself, to accept myself, to stand up for myself and to let go of a lack of self esteem by stopping to judge myself down to a level of being nothing in the eyes of The Others. I apparently have chosen the hard way to get there. I have been abused, have been yelled at, have been bullied, have been hit, have been threatened, have been ignored, have been dominated, have been laughed at, have been in huge danger, have lost people I truly loved, have been in huge sadness and felt my inner strength grow per event. No matter what happened in my life I always straightened my back and went on. Even with more positive strength. I have learned and gained many insights going through this all by listening to my inner voice, by asking for insights and to experience that my life began to change because of that. Some people call that way of asking praying, others will call it meditation, I call it connecting to The Light. The Light is the place where our souls return to after death, The Light is the place we came from as we started our lives here. A place of Loving vibrating energy, wholeness, a place to heal and a place where we can get the insights we missed during our lives here.
I totally realize this is a personal view, every one reading this blog is fully entitled to have another view, another opinion in this. There will never be any judgment on that, we are all walking our own path of life, with our own perception of it.
I have never “ bittered”…. I do know this is a word that does not exist in the American language but I use it because it explains exactly what I mean. I am even GRATEFUL for EVERYTHING that happened to me. It has awakened me and it has shown me the way, my way how to walk my path of life. Of course there have been times I did not understand why things happened the way they did. I have loved and I have lost, but when I asked for the why it happened, connected to The Light, I always got my answers. Sometimes directly, sometimes I got them months or even years later. I never chose to stay in the past. I decided to take out my insights; my lessons of life and learned from it. I am 52 now and I feel in great balance, feel so much happiness in my life and simply know this is because I FEEL and KNOW I am on the path of my destination. I am on the road I designed to be on, experiencing this I feel an inner power and wisdom and an immense joy! I feel young and very connected to my source. The way Brian and I met, the way we live our lives together, the way we connect together and to The Light is filled up with huge joy and excitement. We have united our forces and are fully aware of the richness of life and how we may live it. We experience our life as a gift. We both feel so blessed and rich. Though we have no money, we even did not have a house, we are totally happy! We do not need big cars, expensive vacations, or material wealth to feel happy. We enjoy small things in life, have fun and share…
The biggest gift people have can be hidden inside ourselves. It is the place many of us do not look because we have the ability to choose to focus on what we want. But sometimes we do not really feel fulfilled with joy or happiness at all. We feel empty and depressed. We seem to have everything; a beautiful house, a good job, lots of money, big cars, we give to charity, we donate our time to something useful. But when we do not reach out for our own soul connection with The Light we might feel empty. We are off the highroad of our destination and walk side paths on which we can get lost. Sometimes we ignore the hand that is reached out to us by a friend or a stranger. We have come to a belief that people only want to help us because they want something from us. Well, that is not the truth I experience, nor the way I want to live. Even when I get betrayed in life, it is there to help. Not only me, but also the other person who betrays me and that has to do with the way I react to what happens and the way the other person reacts. Everything is connected, everything happens with a reason. That is my belief.
When I think about death I have learned a lot from it. I have helped terminal patients in their last weeks, days, hours. And every time I saw the same. The disbeliever became a believer. Somehow there was a peace in them that could fill up the entire room. And as these people died, I could feel and sense their soul was leaving their body. Their body was there, nothing actually changed. And yet, everything had changed. It was just a body, there was something missing. The soul energy detached itself from the body. It is the most impressive power I have ever experienced. I could feel it, sense it, even see it leave the body. In this regard I think back of the movie “Ghost” . Did you ever wonder why this movie was seen by so many people?
I have written before about how I was with my father in his last minutes. I held him. I told him he was safe, it was such a special moment. My father was kept alive by machines, his lungs were pumped up with air, and his temperature was kept real low, so he felt very cold. Reason for this was that when he eventually would open his eyes again, he hopefully would have less brain damage. But he never woke up again.
My father was an atheist. Death was death. Despite many discussions with him in which I tried to explain how I saw death and life after death, my father was convinced there was none.
But 2 weeks before he died he collapsed in the arms of my youngest brother. As he woke up, I was there with him, holding his hand. He looked at me and said:
‘I have seen a Light, so beautiful! I felt so overwhelmingly happy! I even did not want to return here!’
These words, coming from the mouth of my father….we always thought totally different about this. Now, my dad was lying there, convinced there was something he never expected to be possible.
In this hour of his death, I looked at him. He was my dad, the same hair, the same face, the same hands. Still there was something different. It felt like he was almost out of his body, as if his soul was kept in it by the machines that kept him “alive”…
As I was sitting next to him, looking at his body, I took his hand and took his body up and laid down his head to my breast. I told him he was completely safe and that his body had become too damaged to live in. That he was kept alive by these machines. And I remembered him at The Light he experienced before, asked him to hold on to The Light, and that he could let go.
‘It’s all right dad’, I said. ‘Thank you for being such a great dad, thank you for being a great husband for my mom, thank you for everything you have done for us and other people. You have done everything you could and we are so grateful for that. I so Love you dad..’ and kissed him on his fore head, held his hand and then felt I had to lay him back so he could decide to go. I looked at him and saw a tear running over his cheek, ran my hand through his grey hair for the last time, stood up, looked one last time and then walked down to the corridor where my mom was waiting. I still felt him, but knew I had to go, because otherwise it would have been so hard for him to let go. As we arrived at the parking card machine in the main hall, I felt his soul floating out of his body. I felt an enormous peace and at the same time an enormous emotion. My dad had died.
Death is a return to the immense Love we have come from. Destination is the hidden knowledge on soul level we get to know during our life.
My want is that people who are in search for the meaning of their life, are given the insight to listen to their inner voice. To reach out for this treasure which is in all of us: the treasure of a meaningful life….